; Ironboyy's Rebellious Little Princess .

Be happy.

2011-02-11T19:37:00.000+08:00

Optimism is key. If you expect the worst, the worst will happen. You are your own stress, your own anger, your own sadness and frustration. If you let things bother you, they will. So, don't let them. Just be happy :} Nothing in life is easy, so make the best of all it. Don't dwell on the negatives, optimism is key.

dead blog.

2011-02-10T13:58:00.000+08:00

Hey bitches. Im back after so long of MIA-ing from blogger.
Things have been fine so far. Very busy as you can guess.
Dead blog, dead readers. I feel like deleting my blog though but
it's the past posts aka memories that is holding me back from deleting this
particular dead blog (: Well, I dont want to lose anything or any post regarding
me and AYIM ~! (:

Yesterday was our 14th month, didnt celebrate it tho due to being very busy
with hell loads of assignments and tasks, we only manage to spend time together,
and it's good enough we did. Im thankful.
Baby did promise me to make up to this day soon enough. I'm still waiting.
We have plenty of dates together , and I really cant wait any longer.
March holidays ; Either we're going to the Gazzilion Bubble Show or Universal Studios
with Syakir and his girlfriend. It's as though a double date.

And then, Fazlin & Akmal ought to organise a double date too with me & Baby.
So yeah. Can't wait .

Okay today , I went to SubCourt for my brother's hearing. Glad that everything
went smoothly. Im still praying for the best.
I really hope god will soon answer my prayers (:
He meant the universe to me , I really love my brother so much (':

Now , I am at Sengkang's Starbucks at Compass Point,
together with Mom , Brother (Afad AWESOME) and also Fyfy.
Im fatigue and very exhausted. After this , we're heading to Hougang to shop for
some clothes, so yeah . thats all for now .

CHEERIO ~!

I'm back again.

2011-01-23T18:42:00.000+08:00

Hello.
I can't update much right now.
Because currently updating using my iPhone,
lappy broke down precisely.
That's the why. I'm not that active in blog or msn anymore.
But am really active in fb. So now, you guys know where to find me okay.

Wow, what a busy year this year could be for all of us.
It's only the 23rd day of year 2011, and I feel very tensed.
Late night sleep, endless assignments and projects.
Very tiring indeed. And the weekends pass by so quickly.
The other was like friday, and suddenly it's Sunday already, and what's
worst , tomorrow is a schooling day. Gah! Can life be anymore easier?

I really have no time for blogging, relink-ing, tag-ing.
I feel like changing everything on my blog, but can't seemed to
find any time to do all this. Gosh.
I've been very busy with school, that I don't really get
to spend time with friends, family and so on.
To be honest, I kinda hate 2011 because it's a very busy year for me
unlike 2008/09/10.

Oh my! I ought to get ready now, I'm going to Hougang with Baby.
Bye.

New Year.

2011-01-02T00:42:00.000+08:00

Wow. My last post was like November. I dint post anything in December at all.
Well, don't feel like it. Baby recently came home from Dubai after Xmas.
Recently, I had a date with Baby at Pizza Hut.
And just now, had Swensen's for Dinner with Babylove.

Awwwwwh man, i gtg .
But I'll update as soon as I got home, provided I am not tired.
Bye.

Cancellation of plans again .

2010-11-24T20:50:00.000+08:00

Hello . What a weather . It's pouring down heavily today , with thunders and lightnings . Tell me how the hell are we going to swimming today . No point waking up early and sacrifice all the sleep because it'll still rain in the afternoon and only stop in the evening . 2 times of cancellations . I hope tomorrow just won't be the third time we have to cancel this plan of ours again . *sigh .
Planned to drop by at Woodlands to pass mom's jacket at aunt's crib and also ended up slacking
here , enjoying the breeze and coldness of the weather , had lunch together with Baby.
In the evening , Aunt baked pie . Ate again ~
Shits happened . LALALALLAALALALALLALLA . I am very lazy to elaborate but I enjoyed the " Shit happened " moments . xD Baby knows why (: Yato texted baby , and he came to slack .
Just came back from shop . Now just listening to songs together with baby playing guitar .

Update again tomorrow ayes (:
Cheerio bitches .

You take all this away from me . Lemme tell you , I am still gonna survive (:

2010-11-23T16:04:00.000+08:00

Grow up and think back what you have done rather than just making the story much more complicating . Making it as if we're the ones that are in the wrong when you actually knew the truth and you jolly well knew you're wrong . So , stop being ashamed and tell your friends how shitty we can be when you're the one being like an asshole. Stop hiding behind the mask that won't get you anywhere. You can think maturely but you chose to be so childish despite your age . What a shame .

Hey readers . I admit I am lazy to update my blog . But well , this is another update and you should be somehow thankful that I am not as lazy as some who don't even bother to update their blog , then what's the point of having a blog right . But then again, each and everyone of them have their own reasons not to do so . Okay whatever reason it may be , I am bored right now. It have been the third time I'm dyeing my hair this month. The first one was Milktea Brown , the second one was Cassis Berry. Today, am going to bleach my hair then going to dye Cassis Berry then going to make some tones to it . Just like Hayley Williams hair . Will put the picture at the end of this post. Today , I am going swimming with Hunney at Wild Wild Wet ; Pasir Ris . Hope the weather will be fine today . It's a date (: Okay, I gotta go . Cheerio Bitches (:

Lesser than what I thought .

2010-11-18T15:28:00.000+08:00

Hey . I don't know what to blog right now .
My mind is just not stable these days , and I can't even describe what's going on.
It's hard. Some friends might know why.
I have less than 2 weeks to spend time with brother ):
When the time comes , I don't know if he's leaving me or not .
I'm praying so hard right now for the best .
I love him too much to see him go now. If he leaves , it's going to be for
a long period of time ): I know I have to face the reality . But I just simply can't .

I was supposed to follow Baby to an oversea trip . But as you know,
I only got less than 2 weeks right with dearest brother. If I follow Baby , I only have
less than 1 week . I want to make use of all the time I have with him.
So instead , I sacrificed my time with Baby and also the oversea trip .
Baby understood how I felt. Baby already left this morning.
I'll only get to see him 1 week later.
Basically, I am going to be sleeping over my Aunt's crib at Woodlands since
brother will be here too. I am going to be here for a week or more since Baby and his
family won't be at home for the 1 week.

I guess that's all I'll be updating.
Going to bake some cookies later with Aunt.

Cheerio.

HALO HALO ! (:

2010-10-24T23:24:00.000+08:00

Hello Hello .
It's super dusty in here , nothing much to update anyways.
I haven't been using lappy a lot these days since I have not pay the internet fees yet.
Updating using Baby's desktop , so yeah .

Things have been very fine these days .
Been enjoying a lot with a lot of slackings and all .
Been tonning quite a number of times with Punggol friends .
But stayed at home for the whole yesterday and today . Reason being is,
fatigue and exhausted plus , running out of cash .
Thanks to buying of ciggies . And yeah , guess what , today I have no ciggies ,
except for mom's and Baby's . Thank god , I still got to smoke .
4 days straight of buying ciggies and all 4 packs finished in 4 days too !
Which means , 1 pack per day . Starting to be very heavy again (:

Haven't been going to school since exams ended . Tomorrow I am so going ,
need to settle some stuffs . And guess what , I am working for both tomorrow and
Tuesday . Oh my . Going to be so tired . Gonna start work at 2pm tomorrow and
end at 6pm . Working at 6pm till closing on Tuesday .
Planning to meet Daling at Punggol tomorrow after work since I forgot to
take my watch back from Natalie . GAH! So forgetful .
Recently , lost my most valuable wallet at Rivervale Mall on the way to Punggol.
Lost of ezlink card, my POSB atm card , all the membership cards .
My most precious pictures taken with Baby , mom's photo , Pantart's photo ,
and my one and only baby picture . Gosh , so sad right . I know I know .

So yeahhh , I have nothing more to say (:
Till next time . Tata .

Ironboyy , I love you .

2010-10-18T14:55:00.000+08:00

You can always treat me like a piece of junk.
Making me feel as though I am just your spare tire , or maybe someone
you used before but have been shoved a side to a corner ; Ignored .
But then again , did I stop loving you or even ignored you ? NO.

You can always treat me like a doll.
Only pick me up from the place you have thrown me only when
you needed me . But too bad , I am not a doll .
what ? I ain't a doll . I am a human being , full with emotions and feelings.
And please stop breaking my fragile tiny heart that has been beating for you
for the past year . It's me who have been there for you , it's me who have been
doing all sorts of things for you. It's me who have been with you through
shits , thick and thin . Through hard times .

And I really miss the old you so much.
Because it's him who have been loving me so much ; the old you .
Because it's him who have been wiping my tears away , hugging me ,
telling me everything was going to be fine , telling me he love me a million times
in a day , telling me he misses me every time we're apart from each other ,
it's him who managed to open the door to my heart , it's him who managed to let me
bring him into my heart . It have been always him . Always ; The old you .
It's always him being the first one to tell me he loves me every single time we talked
, being the first one to hug and kiss me every single time we met ; THE OLD YOU .
I just seemed to miss you so much . The old you who I used to know.
The one I used to joke , laugh , cry , and do every single thing together.
Every single thing was done together.
I was indeed very dependent on you . Too dependent .
I rely on you too much .
That matrep of mine ; Ayim Ironboyy .
The Matrep version of you , was my everything . He listened to me , he listened to my cries .
But you now , )': You're simply turning deaf and you always turn your head around .
But I don't hate you for that . I can't hate you . Because I love you .

I don't know if all your promises still exist ,
you said you won't make me cry , won't hurt me like my ex did .
But you're the one that tears me down upon bringing me up from the ground .
I put so much faith in you , so much faith but you threw everything away .
I never wanted to say this , but you never wanted to stay , or did you want to ?
I am very confused . I don't know why you're doing this .
If you really love me , you wouldn't make me feel any pain.
You won't make me cry all day & night . You wouldn't even break your promises,
you won't hurt me . Instead , you'd wipe away all my tears , hug me , coax and console
me when I am at my worst , show me you love me and all the other things you'd
always do to me for the past year .

But then since , you and I agreed to try and give it a shot to change everything back
to how it used to be , let's just work things out .
Only time and hardwork will tell . Everything was different back then compared to now.
Baby, let's just give it a shot and make all the pain and hurt stop .

I know you love me . And you know that I love you.

ignorance .

2010-10-18T14:03:00.000+08:00

I can't weigh your losing fight everytime .

I just seemed to hate you so much now.
I don't know why . Maybe because of your suckish attitude that
I couldn't bear any longer .

Fuck It .
Fuck everything.

10 month (:

2010-10-09T00:59:00.000+08:00

Happy 10th Month ! <3 to me & Ayim Ironboyy (: So , it's the 10mth of being together with you ehhhh baby (: Oh well , I don't have to like post a 10mth text wishing you here and tell the whole world right ? I already texted you the 10mth wish and basically you've already wished me too ! (: Okay , I am very delighted and very happy at the same time. Who wouldn't right , it's like been already 10mth ! (: Never ever thought I could go this far in a relationship anymore but well , I have trust and faith in you (:

Okay then , till here .

Tata . I love you my Ayim Ironboyy <3

Love .

2010-10-06T01:53:00.001+08:00

In this world which only we existed , there's still the existence of
jealousy , pain and hurt though most of it are all the happiness .

Through out the nights , though you held my hand so tightly,
I swear I could still feel all the cold shivers overwhelming my entire weak body.

As weeks and days past, paranoid is still what I could feel. I can't help it anymore,
I can't help anything if I am feeling this way. I couldn't even help myself.
It's as if I have been hit by a big fat truck full of your words and acts which lands me on the
ground , not able to get up again.
I am still like waiting for you to turn around , run to me and slowly bring me up and recover
all the wounds that have been found on me , be it , internal wounds or on the surface.

I know you love me with all your heart. I know because you have prove me every single thing , which made me convinced and have trust in you through out this thing. My heart knows everything your heart feels. My heart knows that you cherished me, care and love for me. But I really can't help it if my mind keep poisoning my trust and all the thoughts . My mind corrupts everything , always having me jumping into conclusions and having thoughts of things which I know aren't true .

I miss you so damn much. I can't stop thinking of you.
I've already told you what's bothering . And there's no need for me to say it here .
I love you , my only cinta madu . Mwarchies <3

- ; Kecykia , your only cinta gula <3

Us against the world .

2010-09-29T23:30:00.001+08:00

" Hi Ayim Ironboyy ! ): I miss you "

Hello , this post up here is not for readers . And I HAVEN'T update my blog .
This is what I want to express, not for you to read (:
So basically, this post is for the name stated above, Ayim Ironboyy (':

That picture up there just meant a lot to me (:
A lot . It's so meaningful , and baby would know the WHY.
It was taken last year, 04 Dec 09 (':
The most sweetest moment of our life (:

Well, BABY! I MISS IT ):
Fight till the end okays ? (':

I don't know what to title this . { Ayim; I missed you }

2010-09-20T00:12:00.000+08:00

Hey. What's up? (:
Sorry for not been updating my blog for like decades . Chey -.-
Well, what do you expect ? It's the festive season and obviously, I'm kinda busy.
Or maybe , not in the mood to update anything . Very lazy indeed.

Oh. Well get started, eh ! wait, readers ,
I'm not here to update about Hari Raya yet.

This is just a random post made by me. Not just that random, but I feel like blogging though.

I miss you ; Ayim Baby.
It's hard to find words to explain to you right now. About how I really miss you.
And, as you're right behind me, I'm blogging and typing while have to hold on to my tears.
My heart aches a lot. Because I really miss you. Miss you damn bad.
I don't know how to describe how bad I miss you. But I miss you.
Word's are cheap. But mine aren't. I speak and type or let everything from the bottom of
the beating heart. I'm letting a part of what I'm feeling right now.
Last night , when we look into each other eyes. I felt like tearing up. I did.
But I controlled. I controlled most of my tears. When you sang, I just felt the warmness
I used to owned last time. My heart cried as I am so touched.

Everything could be just words. Ordinary words used in daily life.
But actually it meant beyond the word, "Just Words. "
I am stupid and dumb when it comes to showing and acting everything I've said out.
But, if I could show you what is written and felt in my heart, I actually would.
I would slice myself up, just to show you what is inside.

Yes. I am not an angel, I created sins, troubles and everything else,
but then again, I love with all my might, wholeheartedly .
Mentally & physically.

I just want to tell you that ;
I really love you , I really do . I want to have you in my life too.
I want to go through everything with you . Be it the good & the bad.
I just want you to stay by my side.
And to prove me what eternity meant and that it really existed.

I'm done here.
Ayim, again , I love you (':

; Hello hello .

2010-09-02T14:49:00.000+08:00

Hello Hello ^^
I am back bitches . It have been two days now since I'm being discharged from
the hospital. Hehe. So yeah. I didn't go to school today. I supposed to go to school today
to meet my bitches :DD But sorry girls , I dint wake up this morning due to late night movie
yesterday. Watched Vampire's Suck at Baby's crib last night till 3 plus then went to sleep.
The movie's not that funny ; It's average lah (:

Currently staying at Babylove's crib now (: I sukeeeee ^^
Everyday I can see his face (: Wow-ed .
Waiting for Babylove to wake up and FINALLY ! HEEEEEHS .
I'm planning to go Compass Point later with Babylove to get some cookies .
I'm not fasting due to medications . Macam ass gitu kan.
I want to fast .

Okay nevermine .
I think Imma shower now .
Blog again later , bitches .

` Cheerio .

; Eternity.

2010-08-31T18:13:00.001+08:00

My Winter Love . 09 12 .

2010-08-31T17:40:00.001+08:00

I only love you. I only cherish you. I only care when it comes to you.
You're my priority. I treasure you damn freaking much.
I have always wanted you. Now, I have you, I won't let go of you.
You're the most sweetest honey-ed winter love. My bestest winter love.
Why winter? Because we fell in love during the winter season (:
When I needed you, you never fail to be there. I never hated you.
Maybe I said it when I am angry. But, my heart don't hate you.
You never fail to make me smile to myself. Never fail to make me laugh.
Whenever I broke down, you'll always say that everything's gonna be fine &
that I still have you to depend on. Whenever, I felt not save & unsecured,
you're the one standing up in front of me to protect me & keep me warm .
Telling me you'll keep me safe and sound.

You'll always have a place in my heart. Remember our promises?
You're my number one, my everything , you'll forever be at top of my list.

I love you so much. Holding on. Staying strong (:

`Kecyk Kia ; Your SugarHoneyh Lover.

Forever.

2010-08-30T23:20:00.000+08:00

What I have for you ; Ironboyy .

;

2010-08-30T22:16:00.002+08:00

Sex ; Drugs & Homeworks .

; Love .

2010-08-30T18:24:00.002+08:00

I had a dream. Significant to Love. Maybe it's Love.

It's hard to explain. Jealousy existed, tears existed, past existed.

Everything happened in a snap. I saw it in a film. A film full of drama.

I saw everything happened in front of my eyes on the screen.

Then, I saw myself. I saw myself crying, I saw myself shouting and screaming,

spewing venom and poisons out of my mouth. I saw rage taking control of me.
I wasn't happy. I broke down in front of the screen seeing that kind of thing actually happened
to me last time. Then, I knew, I was cheated and lied to.

The next time I remember was running to the end. But I love you too much to walk away and leave.
I don't know where to go. I am lost. I am confused. I saw the world spinning
around me. I can't breathe, I felt as if I am suffocating. I can't believe what happened.
It hurts. I saw Love leaving. I don't know what I am capable of at that point. I don't know my own strength. It's so insane. Everything around me was surreal . It was crazy.
I don't know what's going on.

Few months later , I don't know , but for all I know , it was a long period of time and I saw your face again. And again. Repeatedly. But why? I saw a note in your phone, you said to yourself we were doing fine and okay. But then , we're not. Then, why did you say so?
Are we doing GREAT ?

I can still feel it lingering around me.

Ayim Ismail Milne , I need you now )':

I need your hug to calm me down. I need you to kiss me.

I miss your words . I miss your " Everything's gonna be alright. "

I miss you. I need you. I love you so much.

The fifth day .

2010-08-29T10:22:00.003+08:00

Hey . So today marks the fifth day I'm in the hospital . Using baby's phone to get the access to the internet , since the hospital offers free wireless here . The connection , I gotta say , it's superb . Best . Mummy brought along my lappy , but forgotten to bring along the charger . It's been two nights baby accompanied me . He's been visiting since day two . My bones are aching so much due to the steroid tablets doctor prescribe me with . I'm really touched to see bby actually sacrificing a lot for me . His act really melt my heart . Yesterday , younger sister came , Iera . She made me cringe due to her sotong acts . I miss her still . Ayu Jepon came with hubby and Putri . Putri was the entertainment for last night , cute . Haha . Tonight , Shirley might be accompaniying me tonight . So yeah . Hopefully mummy's coming to bring me the laptop charger . Hees . I'm kinda bored now since babylove is sleeping , pity him . Tired . I guess that's all for now .
' cheerio .

BBY.

2010-08-27T23:44:00.000+08:00

It's 11.41 nw , and I blogging .Dropping by to tell that bby bought me magenta leopard print handphone strap and pink ear loops . Hehe . Sweet right . I knw . Well thats my boyfriend . Hehe . He's beside me nw , accompanying me tonight . Aww, thanks hunny . Mwarhs !

Thats all for nw .
Cheerio !

2010-08-27T17:20:00.000+08:00

Hello . So basically , Its been three days now since my admission to the hospital . So yeah . Family and beloved friends are keeping me companied now (: Thanks to my brother , Afad hamster keeping companied since yesterday . Thanks love . Bbylove will be sleeping over here today . Yayness , I'm feeling so pampered . I'm using Shirley's iPod to blog . Shirley , Ahchoi , Nasuha and Ahziefah is here now . So sweet right . Nas steroid will be coming before seven pm. Babylove will be coming later on . So yeahh . Irarey will be coming with 415 ^^ . They're otw now (: eh Irarey reached already . Hehhe . So sweet yknow !! (: I got hugs from them , wooohoo (: okay chao !

Outing with peeps .

2010-08-22T17:34:00.000+08:00

(: hello !

Going to update about yesterday ; an outing to Geylang's Bazaar .
So, yesterday was SUPERBLY AWESOME (:
Basically, woked up a lil late yesterday, at around 2 plus I reckoned, or was it 3?
Around that time lah. (: Afai told me to meet at Compasspoint at 4pm.
Then he went out first , with Ahchoi . So yeah. Left me with Afad at home.
Showered ; Doll up , went out . Babylove reached before me. Me & Afad reached around 5 plus. So yea. Met Afai, Fyfy & Boyf ( Sky ) , Babylove , Ahchoi & Lyana , Afi & Girlf , Matin.
Trained to Serangoon, took the circle line , trained again to Paya Lebar.

Bumped into Eya Manjer (:
Then bumped into Woodland peeps ;Iynaa SL.

Afterwards, went to find a place to breakfast.Can't really find a place because it was packed with people everywhere . Saw Papylon .
Met Ejal SpehSial halfway there . They suggest we just get drinks first for breakfast.
So yeah, we did. Went to Pasar Geylang Serai.
Soon enough it was already breakfast. So , stood aside, drank. Then Anas Steriod came along.
Smoked a while. then went to the second level. Went to the toilet with Fyfy.
Then baby texted me saying they found a place. Crapped alot.
Babylove bought me ' dengdeng ' which he promised me during fasting month last year ,
that was when we were friends & still flirting <3 Sweet right, he remembered (:
Okay, then , me and baby ordered western food for our breakfast ; Chicken Chop with Fries.
Nice & Yummy .

After eating , decided to walk around the Bazaar there . Then,
Matin , Afi & Girlf part ways with us . So then , slacked a while, Ira came then Sal came along.
Took pictures , some are with me, some are with babylove & some are with Ira.
Camwhored. Myself , Babylove & Fyfy shared money to buy ciggys. So then, smoked and all.
Had no plans afterwards. Bumped into Aidhah & Adilah.

Decided to go to grandlink. On the way there, saw this typical bitch whom I hated a lot.
She can go to die. The next time I saw her, I am so gonna say what I would want to say all this while. Bumped into Ayu Shortie at the entrance of grandlink ^^ .
Afterwards , went to the toliet with Fyfy & Ira . Camwhored. Went down. Bumped
into Iynaa SL again with friends. Then bumped into Lili Berryla , Ayraah Kynnora , Fiey Baby & their friends . Chatted a while , then chao-ed . Plans cancelled . So yeah. Smoked outside.
Then headed home. Yesterday, we crapped a lot ^^
It was awesome. Went our separate ways. Baby's coming over later , he's on the way here.
He's breaking fast at my house. Mom cooked my fv dish; Ayam Chili.
I am so pampered these few days , as I keep asking mom to cook me dishes I felt like eating for
breakfast (: I'd prefer home-cooked food . Mom's cooking is the best.

Better than your mom's .
Okay, pictures shall be uploaded once I got it from the rest.

Cheerio (:

dear spammers .

2010-08-19T18:25:00.000+08:00

Your words ain't gonna kill me, not gonna affect me , not bringing me down in anyways. But instead made me laugh at you spammers, seeing you guys had nothing better to do made me cringe . You guys are not aware of what you're commenting, isn't everything you're saying on my tagb. reflects back to you . Think about it. Cheerio losergays .

2010-08-18T01:48:00.000+08:00

Ayim Ironboyy ; My everything.

Hello , this is going to be very random (:
I am webcam-ing with babyboo <3 So hot ^ ^

kay , bye (:

2010-08-17T01:11:00.004+08:00

Biar nampak macam minahrep, tapiy careh tidak seperti minahrep. Zaman minahrep dah bes lahh passerby oi. Fucking minahrep tuh nenek kau sundal bodo (x Cakap lah aperh kau nak cakap yeeee , aku malas mawu layan , asalkan kau bahagia (:

Babylove .

2010-08-16T18:56:00.000+08:00

Aww , baby didn't change (:
I am so freaking touched <3 He explained everything and it's all a misunderstanding :DD
So, precisely, Babylove slept over my house on Saturday and also yesterday (:
Was happy , very happy ! Babylove is at the living room with my two elder brother ; Afad Hamster & Afai Junior . Together with Ahchoi :D So yeahhh ,

I love it when Babylove is making me laugh , especially with his stupid faces.
Omg, I love him so much. We're much more stronger than before . And I truly trust him for
keeping my heart warm , safe & sound.
With him near me , I felt so warm & secured. Only he can make me have no worries .

Baby, thanks for understanding me so much .
Thanks for loving me always. Thanks for all your words & actions that prove me that you really love me.
I appreciate everything .
Mwarrrrchies !~

Chao .

Spammers & Haters who eventually made my tagb. alive , thanks yeahhh . At least I know my blog's not dead ! Wooooohooooo (:

2010-08-15T04:42:00.003+08:00

aku invisible peh siaaaa!? baik uh eh

My scene hair ):

2010-08-15T04:12:00.000+08:00

; Your words ain't gonna kill me bitch. -Afai Junior<3

Hello readers :D

Oh my, see the picture up there, was taken last here , during Hari Raya season.
Look at my hair, I miss my two tails ): My perfect scene kid hair, I missed it so much.
Nevermind , gonna do the same hair style this year, well , not the exact one though,
but at least still any scene hair I love.
Oh , that pendant . I don't know where it is now, I kinda misplaced it or lost it. Have no idea.
Oh whatever what it is, I MISS MY GOD DAMN HAIR! ):

Anyway , I got home from meeting Babylove , Irarey Kental & Dolphin Mayday.
Met Irarey first at YewTee as I was meeting a blogshop owner for my
' Rihanna's racer shades .'They sell the exact one. Nice. HOTNESS !
Then trained to Bugis, Phin was already there. Pity him had to wait for us.
Babylove was damn late. So , Phin decided to break fast at Long John Silver,
and so we did . I had ' Golden Deal 2 ; Fish and Chicken. ' Had freaking a lot of Tartar sauce.
Cheeeeeese tkleh luperh oi! Heehs .
After that, the seven eleven over there didn't sell any ciggys , FUCKED UP STORE.
So then I told Phin there's shops I know that sell ciggys, not far from there ,
just across Bugis Junction ; somewhere behind. He decided to buy from the seven eleven
in that area instead. After wards, smoked at somekind of alley , because its the only place we could sit . Camwhored . Saw the fireworks for YOG (:
I decided to buy accessories then , at the Bugis street,
Baby came. Accompanied him to KFC to eat.
Walked at Bugis street , got accessories I wanted , window shopped a while.
Buy drinks , walk around. Crap here & there, then went home .
Irarey took the separate train ): So sad!

Me, baby & phin took the same train.
Alighting at the same stop ; Tampines .
Baby wanted to sleepover at my house. So yeah.

Me and Baby accompanied Phin to the interchange as he wanted to take 65
to bused home to Bedok.
Before that, bought McCafe's Double Chocolate Frappe.
Baby wanted to buy ciggys , so yeahhh . Bye to Phin .
Walked home .
Now I am blogging .

Brother playing PS2 with him .

Baby ckp dgn dorg baik2 , cute lah aperh lah.
Dgn aku, kimek , kasar .
Baik ehh. Jealous siak aku. * sulking till now. *
It have been hours I've been sulking, but there's no comfort from baby.
NICEEEE ~

Anyway, bye.

I am so fatigue.

2010-08-13T23:19:00.000+08:00

Hello dumbfucks ! (: I am damn freaking tired~ Oh my god!
I am so freaking not well. My body aches a lot. Like seriously,
I don't know what's up with me lately.

Something's just seemed to be missing , and what's worst, I don't know what has been
missing lately. And it badly hurts. But still, I am still very baffled, very confused.
It's like , " OMG! what the fuck is missing now? Why the hell am I feeling this way? "
It's like , what is it ? what is it ? WHAT'S THE FUCKING PROBLEM?!

I have no mood to blog . I'm currently , down.
Goodbye.

R.I.P uncle security.

2010-08-11T21:26:00.000+08:00

OhEmGee ~

I just received one shocking and devastating news from my friend, Narina.

She was my former schoolmate. So yeah. Narina got to know from, Bariah.

I got to know from her that our former school security guard, passed away this morning

during Sahur. We was so close to him sey.

It's only the first day of the fasting month, and he has gone far away from earth.

For all I know , he slipped and fell in the toilet .

Oh my, pitied his wife , kids & family.

It's only the first day of fasting,

pitied his family for not getting to celebrate Hari Raya together with him.

May his soul rest in peace (':
Allah loves him more than we do.
Moga Allah dpt melindungi dierh daripada api neraka .
Amin~

First day.

2010-08-11T21:02:00.000+08:00

Hello to all (:

So basically, today marks the first day of the fasting month (:
Of course, I did fast today. Duh!
Today , I was awaken by my sister at 4 plus or is it 5 , I can't remember ; to have our
Sahur. Had rice with eggs . Went back to bed, it's already 5.45 when I get back to sleep.
Set alarm ; was supposed to wake up at 6.15 to bath & shower and get ready to go to school.
The moment I opened my eyes, it's already 7.40 plus.
Went back to sleep, woke up at noon. My friend came over ; helped her with something.
She went back home at around 4 plus. By then , Sis & Maid was home with the food we're having
for break fast . Bla3 ... Then at, 7.16 , it was time for break fast.

Chao.

I LOVE AYIM ISMAIL MILNE <3

spammers .

2010-08-10T17:46:00.001+08:00

Spam uh spam. Jangan tak spam (:

Envy and watch me , bitch.

2010-08-07T05:12:00.000+08:00

Please, you can never compare to me ; all this bitches are scared of me.

I am who you couldn't even dare to be. So, please, stop all your peribahasa shits.

Because, you get all the meanings wrong bitch. Sucker. If you don't know what

it means, might as well don't use it. I'm terrible , so you better be careful aye bitch.

I'm the most hardest bitch, fuck with me, I'll kill you . I swear, don't you messed with me.

Want to taste my fist, messed with me and you'll kiss my fist. I swear I'll do it. I don't freaking

care who you are, whoever you can be , I don't give a fuck to you. You can beg me all along,

beg me till you cry , but no , I won't give in. I give no mercy to fucking bitches like you.

Everything I do, must you do it too? Bitch.

Chinese blood huh? Oh, you know, I fucking hate them.

And so, to you , bitch, so sorry to tell you, no mercy okay.

Play my game, I'll have fun. I'll be the baddest bitch alright.

Fuck you bitch, you aint me muhfaka! Sepet.

You don't have the eyes like me, you don't have a nose bridge like me.

Your looks aren't that gorgeous anyway. You don't have an attitude like me, instead,

you're acting like you're a fucking whore. Kalau dah burok tuh, prangai senonoh , tkperh jugak, orang maseh pandang kau. Niy, kau dah burok, beyh prangai burok, kimek, sapaaaah siak mawu pandang kau. Bodoh siak kau ehh. Kau pk aperh, sec 1 jerh, mawu big fuck uh samahh aku ? butoooo samaaaah kau ehh gergerl. Taqk puas, meh sini, lai , bbl dgn aku. Aperh siak gunerh nyerh kau tules pat cyberworld. tol tk ? Bodoh nyerh sundal.

Bitch. Lifeless one indeed.

Oh please, don't copy paste my words alright. Arsehole.

Fuck you whore. Don't be a poser okay.

Never talk back to me , just quiver at the sound that I scream.

And , remember okay, do not copy paste me , you copypig .
Oh well, Siapa makan chili , terasa pedasnye. (x

Superb.

2010-08-07T03:35:00.000+08:00

Hi. I know it's like 2 plus going to be 3 soon and I'm blogging.
I mean , yeahh , whatever.
Okay , wait, I am hungry ):

So precisely, on Thursday, Baby slept over my house because
Mum asked to ; There's no one at home & Mum asked him to accompany us at home ^^
Then, Baby slept outside and obviously I slept in my room lah.
I was from school then went to slacked awhile with Akmal & Alin and two of Alin's
chinese guy-friends. Went to Baby's crib first, slacked. Then off to my crib.
Reached, then me & baby played PS2 (: Played Def-Jam fight for New York ; & The Warriors.
Then we got tired. Slept. Till the next morning when I received brother's text to go and watch
movie. Replied. Then , supposingly , we're supposed to go to school.
But ended up, sleeping. Why? Because we're too tired , too freaking fatigue.
Woked up at 12 plus. Brother replied, saying that meeting at Kovan at 2.30 pm.
I was like HUH?! okehhh. Woked Baby up.
Then he wanted to play PS2 , played Warriors. Then , was late -.-
Shits happened, met brothers at Vivo straight. Reached at 5 , I reckoned.
Movie started like 50 mins ago. Bla3, bla3 . Train-ed home.
Baby and Ahchoi aka " Af-Bitch " slept over. Now, brother(Afai) is playing the PS2 with Ahchoi
while Baby is sitting beside me now & brother(Afad) has already slept.
I am freaking hungry and I want to go to McCafe to buy myself Frappe.

I am bored right now.
Chao.

A poser .

2010-08-04T22:43:00.000+08:00

Hello bloggy & readers :D
It has been two days I didn't attend school.
Sick , unwell & feeling dead. But yet alive.

Baby, you know, I love you so much. And I know you love me a lot.
You have been the best love. Likewise. Baby, I won't leave you and I know
you wont do the same. Our love will last till eternity. Till marriage & till the end okayy.
I promise(:

And so , there's this bitch that has been a poser. Copying my words.
Like every nine and all. And she thinks her bf is hot, and what's worst she thinks
everyone loves her. Oh cmon! Stop dreaming bitch.
Stop walking like that & attracting attention, staring at guys and all. You got to stop it.
The juniors in school nowadays are so getting in my nerves.
Juniors, you guys are the worst ugly bitch in the school. And you have to get & accept that.
You just fucking entered the school and you act like you had few years back .
Oh cmon, you're not me. You guys can never be me okay.
And bitch , you can never be me, never gonna be the most sweetest bitch alright.
You can never have a sweet boyfriend like me. Maybe you could, but a stmf, I supposed.
You can never be a girl like me . Never . Get that in mind okay.
So , all you can do is , ENVY ME SUCKERS.

Assignments sucks balls.

2010-08-02T23:14:00.000+08:00

Ohmygosh , I am lazy to do all my Design & Technology assignments.
There's like so many of it , from last three week's works had not been completed yet.
Fucked up ? I know right. Today school was perfectly fine except for the fact
that I was late again. There's never been a time that I was punctual except for the first
week since school started. Sucha model student ! xD
Okay , skipped. So precisely , I was having my Standardised Test. A geography paper indeed.
It was quite easy (: Then , had our Physic , sucks like fucking hell. We was super restless.
Afterwards was recess , dint eat with baby. Today, I ate with Iylaa Nonet, Julie Biscuit , Fhy Barney & one of her friend. Ate our normal meal for recess.
Then baby came , we talked a while , and then I go off with Julie.
This comes the fun part, as me & Julie was walking to the stairs which was leading
to our classroom block , we was talking about PPK ! :D Yeah. We was talking about " her "
liking PPK , like Omg kan Julie . On the way walking there , we bumped into PPK :DD
Yeah! We crapped a lot. I told him the things I shouldn't ! HAHA! xD like the wallpaper stuffs .
Then , we saw her in class , then we was like '' OMG! there she is! Crowd around PPK! "
Iylaa came along , and all the cringe like hell there's no tomorrow (:
Skipped , she was looking kinda pissed at us or so. Like I care.
So, then we had Lang arts , it was fucking crap because I had to do a play. But I made
everyone laugh damn hard essp. Iylaa & Julie , with my priceless expression . That's why.
Iylaa laughed till she actually cried. History was okay, Math sucks balls.
After school , me and baby went to meet Akmal & Alin at usual place.
Met Sham afterwards, ate at Cp. Bought scarf , went back home with baby.
Crapped ^^ went to buy dinner , eat , watch movie halfway. And now , Im blogging , and baby's helping me with DnT , but I haven't come out with an idea about the Handphone Holder project , it's fucking hard! -.-

In 10 mins time , I have to go home. Hopefully I get to chat with him at home later on.
DnT sucks sia because of the coursework & the teachers. None of them is as fun as
Mr.Ng & Mr.Tan ): they were the most funny DnT teachers I have ever had.
So , yeah.. Fyi, my principle sucks. She's the most horrible & fucked up principle I've ever had.
Fucked up woman with a fucked up attitude which eventually came from a fucked up family with a fucked up background , that explains why she's the most worst bitch ever ! (:
Gah, if in Singapore , killing is not an offence neither it is a murder, I would be the first one to kill her with a gun or machine gun! or even the Katana . Okay, too much games!
Pitied baby doing all the works, sorry hunney ^^
I hated courseworks so much! It sucks balls manzxc !

I gotta go now, bye bloggy , bye readers!
Chao.

Baby.

2010-08-01T19:44:00.000+08:00

You're satisfied when I am not with everything that has been done .
I am not satisfied . Yes , not satisfied .
I guess I must listen to you .

Can you like give and take ?
Since after marriage , I'll be the one listening to you , why dont now while I am still young ,
you follow my way and losen abit and let me have fun .
I am still young , I want to taste everything I could .

I am sorry .

2010-08-01T19:30:00.000+08:00

Hello(:
There goes my mood . From just now, intended to blog, now , lost every feeling
to blog. So yeah , screw you guys up .

Happy Birthday IERA KITKAT :D

2010-08-01T13:25:00.000+08:00

Being happy is not perfection. It means you have to look beyond all the imperfections. And when someone says you can't make it or you can't do it, turn around and tell them 'watch me bitch.'

It's been a long day yesterday. Okay, fake.
I haven't been in the mood to blog. The feeling's just not there yet.
Chey. Okay whatever. Btw , those who wants to be relink , I've done relinking you guys.
And p.s , This is not my new blogskin , I dint have a change of blogskin ,
I only changed the background image , so yeahh.

Today going over Yishun then Woodland's .
Going Yishun to celebrate my younger sister's birthday , Iera Kitkat <3
Happy 13th Birthday To Iera Kitkat ! :D
Sweet^^ , crap. Then going Woodland's because aderh kenduri arwah pakcik.
I wanted baby to tag along , but then this piggy of mine haven't wake up yet.
Hoping he text me soon lah okay. So yeah.

I freaking hell don't know what to blog about already. So yea.
Currently listening to ' Lil Wayne - Warrior ' ; Downloading some songs.
Going to shower soon and get readyy .
Wow-ed , my software for downloading the songs from YouTube have some problems _|_
Asshole . Fuck it lah. Updating the software now .

I feel so bored. So dead, not alive.
I hope later is going to be fun. I hope baby wake up soon.
I need a new phone so badly. God.
I want Samsung Galaxy S :DD

Going off now, gonna shower & get ready (:
Chao~

my awesomest lense (:

2010-07-28T23:25:00.000+08:00

Okay, this is the other picture which I edited together

with the previous picture ; [*looks down*]

I love my lenses. They're so awesome.

Okay,bye.

like no other. envy us bitch! (:

2010-07-28T23:21:00.000+08:00

Hello readers! I have just edited this photo a while ago. Actually edited two pictures, one is this,
and the other one is my picture alone.
I miss him a lot, see that guy up there, yeah, him.
Ainnayim , like no other love. You can never find any couple better or sweeter than us.
7 months plus of being together and soon to be our 8th month actually teaches me about
true love. Oh, well, nothing can separate us both. NOTHING.

So, bitch, stop whatever
you trying to do okay. Stop all your nonsense bitch. Cmon, get over it, he's like mine.
And there's no fucking way he's gonna be yours again okay. So, stop adding him or whatsoever or so, stop telling your friends how much you miss him, stop saying something reminds you of him , whatever shit okay. Just stop because you're just hurting yourself, don't you see?
Seeing me and him doing so GREAT, hurts right? Yes, I know.
So, envy us bitch. (:

We're going to be with each other
no matter what. And baby promised that I am his FIRST and LAST love.
And I love my baby so much. Likewise. Even if we broke up, our hands are still
holding to each other. And our hearts are always beating together. Half of my heart is the other half of his heart ; likewise. Even it's officially over between us, we're still going to love each other.
We're never going to let go. We promised right baby? (:
But baby, we are never going to breakup . It's going to be wasted to give up on each other
after all the long months of admiring, loving, waiting, entertaining, accompanying, caring, cherishing each other before we became an official item.
I love you so much, and I know how much you love me (:

It's too tight to let go. It's too painful to let go. Because, we love each other to much
that's the why it's hard to let go.

I really appreciate you. I love you so much.
Tomorrow, after school, me & baby are going fishing :D
Cute right. Yesterday, went fishing at Punggol Park which was located at Hougang.
Tomorrow , maybe going to Punggol End to fish (:
I am so freaking excited <3
Actually planing to fish just now, but I can't furthermore, I am lazy & tired.
Baby, I miss you so freaking much. I can't wait to meet you tomorrow ^^

Iloveyousofuckingmuchmyhorneyhunney :D
`yourkinkysugar <3

fuck.

2010-07-28T13:03:00.000+08:00

Everything's changing .

I am too tired & too sick to meet anyone this moment.
I am too freaking upset. Too upset to talk to anyone.
Fuck everything, fuck you.

I miss you.

2010-07-26T03:18:00.000+08:00

That picture up there was taken a long time ago when I was still staying at Yishun.
Very masai & messy . It was late at night when we webcam-ed . So yeah, you should understand why we're very messy. So yeah.

So, now, it is 3 am plus already, and I am not asleep and tomorrow there's SCHOOL.
Oh , sucha bore when it comes to academic. Boooo ~
I am eating Oreo while drinking FnN Orange and blogging .

Baby slept already. Obviously.
So, I logged into Baby's account just now, and saw his ex adding him up.
Whatever. Yeah. Bla bla bla.
Now , I am very sleepless.

I miss my Ironboyy )':
wondering , he must be waiting for me like since just
now under the tree with swings with the carvings of our name in dreamland.
Poor baby had to wait for me at dreamland while I still here still on earth blogging.
Hang on okay baby boy.
I just realised I have the most caring , sweeeeetest , loving , understanding boyfriend ever.
So , bitches out there, envy me okay. You won't have him even if his single.
No way. In the first place, he WILL NOT be single.
He's the best of the best (: And I love him so fucking much. More than ANY of his ex(s).
I am the best okay for him :D
The number one first love he ever felt. Can you imagine, I am actually THE FIRST LOVE
of AYIM IRONBOYY <3 ; wow right.
He never felt any love as pure as mine, he said.
And , I never had any sweeeet and the most kind boyf. ever, the one who can accept ME.
Ayim Ironboyy, you got me so dangerously in love with you.
Remember, how hard time is, we're still going to hold each other's hand and make it through
to the end.
I love you so fucking much.

I can't wait to meeet you later on.

Btw, me and baby bought the same couple accessory :D
It's pink, white & black. I'll update soon about the picture aye readers.
Okay chao.

My sweetest addict.

2010-07-24T08:09:00.000+08:00

Greetings hunks & sexaay chikaro(s) :D
It's 7 plus in the morning. And I haven't sleep.
Maybe around 9, I'll be meeting this guy up here.
See that guy there, that's my sweetest boyfriend.
This photo , supposed to have cup noodles on the table.
But then again, I get so irritated with the cup noodles, and there's some more
reasons ,Baby knows why .
So, what I did was to erase the noodles, ya, as in clone stamp.
My photoscape has became a photoshop where you could actually to that.
To those who aren't aware, photoscape has a new version which is the 3.5 .
Go and download that and you'll know what I meant by erasing the cup noodle baby was eating
in the picture. Okay, skipped~

Baby missed me so much that just now , earlier, he asked me to hail a cab to meet him.
He'll pay the fare. He's crazy. He even asked me to take the first bus just now.
Yeah, that's my baby.
I miss him , yes I do. I'd be lying if I say I don't right.

Yknow, he's so cute in this photo <3
Ofcourse he is , he's my boyfriend ! :D

Okay, now , still chatting with him ^^
Omg, it's 8.09 am ?!
Okayyyy , byeeeee .

The painful delusions.

2010-07-20T07:56:00.000+08:00

Truth always hurts. Yes, I know that.
But it dint freeze me from somekind of painful delusions.
I can still feel it. I am now, not me. I felt so different.
I think I am not normal anymore. I don't know if I ever can be normal again.
The feeling's just not there anymore.

My old habbits are all coming back again. It's coming back.
And I feel it coming. I am starting to do it again.
I thought October 09' was the last. But I was wrong.
Everything now changes my mindset.

I know I dissapoint my friends & Ayim.
But it's not my wants , it's not what I wanted ,
it's what you made me to be this way.

I apologise to Ayim especially for
drinking cough syrup and slitting my wrist again.
If you want to slap me , go ahead and do it.
I love you.

Hope everything turned out to be okay.

2010-07-19T08:19:00.000+08:00

Hey. It's eight in the morning now.
I dint go to school. I am feeling sick. Sick deep inside.
My heart's not okay. And , I need a break from all the shits I am going
through these two days. Which is since yesterday.
So, I hope everything dint end. I hope this is not goodbye yet.

Ayim Ironboyy, I still love you okay.
I hope everything's gonna be alright later on.
I guess I'll be meeting you later on at 2; after school.

Bestfriend,
It's okay if you don't want to talk to me anymore.
It's okay if you wish to ignore me for now.
But all I want you to know, in my heart, you're
still my bestfriend. Thanks for all the good times.
Thanks for being there when I need you. Thanks for all the times
you really really cared about me. Thanks for being protective over me all this while.
Take care of yourself when I am not around.
Love you, friend )':

Ayim, I still want to be with you okay.
This is just a blog, and it's my diary.
I write what I feel okay.
I love you Ayim.
I really do.

Goodbye.

Goodbye.

2010-07-18T23:57:00.000+08:00

Only God knows how much I love Ayim Ismail Milne.
Only God knows how much I cared for him , I cherished him ,
how much I treasure him , how much I missed him , how much I really don't want to lose him.

I maybe very weak deep down inside, but that doesn't mean, I have to go through this
again and again. I totally had enough. It's Ayim I chose to be with. It's him I chose to love.
But why, I end up being hurt all over again? Is it my mistake?
It is wrong to hide everything from you boyfriend? Why? It's because you don't want
to risk anything. Why? It's because you don't want to hurt him. Why? It's because
you care about what he felt. Lastly, WHY?! IT'S BECAUSE YOU LOVE HIM SO MUCH.
That's the why(s) .

But I guess now everything is kinda too late.
Nothing's gonna change now.
Everything's ending. It seemed that it's going to be a goodbye.
I have no more say. I am just not me.

I lost you, I lost my bestfriend.
Bye love(s).

I want this to end.

2010-07-18T05:25:00.000+08:00

I have seriously no mood to blog this morning actually .
Well , someone & somethings just pissed and tick me off.
It have been two days now since I slept over at Ayim's house.
It's weekend , what do you expect.
So yeah. I don't freaking knows what's running through my mind right now.
Everything seemed so surreal blur. And now , I am seriously out of words.
I don't think I have anything to write about now. Actually there's a lot.
But now, I can't find any words to describe anything.
The pictures I deleted earlier seemed to pop out and appear again.
The pictures I have never seen before existed in his file.
What's that supposed to mean ? If you really misses your ex or so, go back to her.
Leave me alone. I am seriously better off alone.
If you don't need me anymore , then , I , myself don't need you in my life anymore.
Just take what we had now , is just only a nice and painful dream okay AyimIronboyy ?
Why suddenly the picture you're ex took for you suddenly existed?! Tell me how the fuck it happened?
Did you talked to her or did you ask if she have any copies of that photos?
Anything can be possible. And I know you're clever , BUT , I am certainly smarter and I am not
as dumb as what you think I am .If you said that picture was there long time ago, how the fuck did I
not notice if I always scan through your files?
Eh c'mon .I am not stupid okay. I don't feel like I have been treated normally .
You seemed not to be the boyfriend type.
The picture I had deleted , how come it's still there?
I remember clearly okay what I deleted. Oh come on, you love that picture right?
Have it then , I don't freaking care anymore.

Oh fuck, this spoils what I wanna blog earlier on.

Someone, talk to me.

Pierced.

2010-07-16T02:31:00.000+08:00

I want to start piercing again. I don't know how many times I've
pierced my lips, my tongue, my cheeks. A million times, I reckoned.
The piercing hole in my nose is closed. The one which is still existing
is my eyebrow's & my ears. I miss piercing. I miss all my studs.
I still keep them. Lots of them.
I don't know if AyimBaby would allow me to re-pierce everything back.
So yeah. Considering of piercing back this Dec holiday. Dying my hair again.
I want those hair. So am thinking of getting my hair extension and so.

Now, I feel so bored. Super bored.
I am watching videos of YouTube . Guitar covers.
I want another guitar. Thanks to someone who borrowed it and then
lost it. I doubt so. Sucker. Whatever. It was so long ago.
I do not wish to recall and remember any of it anymore.
I want a new guitar so that I can strum the strings once again.

Iylaa .

2010-07-15T00:38:00.001+08:00

This post is specially for my dearest love, Iylaa Nonet.

Babe, stay strong okay. Just ignore her alright.
You are not a useless friend of mine. If you say you are ,
I'll accompany you along , I'll be useless with you.
We'll be useless together so that you wont feel alone.
Even if you say you are useless , I still love you for that and for who you really are.
We'll stand together , side by side and I'll help you all along through the
hard & good times alright. So , now, I don't need you to worry about that.
And for her case , just ignore whatever she has to say about you and me or so .
Let her be. She says all that in her blog , but she didn't write names right? So , we need not
feel like she's writing about us. Even if it's true, so what? It's our lives that she wants to mend? No.
She says that you'd need to eat some makeups so that you'll be preety on the inside right ,but then again,
look at her, is she preety on the inside? Does she even realize? No.
Before asking you to do so, she dint make sure that she herself is preety on the inside.
Iylaa , if you're not preety, why would I say you are? You know my taste right? See.
If you're not , she more worser okay.
Now, I just want you to know , you're not useless , you're my dear friend and lastly ,
I love you.
I promise all that I've said above (:

I want it.

2010-07-14T03:35:00.000+08:00

I want those. Worth the money , Ayim said.

Snapped.

2010-07-12T01:35:00.000+08:00

Hello. Today is very bad. I didn't have a good day today.
I get so pissed off easily. If I were to have a gun with me right now,
I would definitely shoot anyone that irritates me.

I dint have a good day. It sucks.
Because I am not myself as I am sick. I am feeling unwell.
Very unwell. Unwell in the brain , unwell in the heart , I have a unwell body,
everything's unwell. My head's spinning. The heat's rising.
I feel so hot, it's so freaking stuffy.
Now , I am sleepy. Oh fuck , what's wrong with me.
It's already so damn fucking stuffy in here. And now this.

I intended to post this up for baby to read, but then things got cocked up,
and I dint post what I was suppose to post.
God, I shall take a rest now.
Bye.

2010-07-10T05:30:00.000+08:00

ayy yo ! Ironboyy here aahhhh ! :D

updating again ~

soo yeahh , gonna talk how i met this hawt mama of mine over here *wink*

it was a schooling day , the ferst day in 08 .

was finding chicks in school -.-

lol , pecah rabak babe !

standard , ddk luar office , mcm biaserh uh kan . till school ends .

after school , saww this particular chick ^^

' woaaahh , awesome ! like finally -.- '

well , she kinda ignored me , wth !

jual mahal lah kan ? xD

dier jalan depan , aku pat blkg chui2 dier lahh kan .

saap , sangkot bui ! saaaaangkoott ! xDD

finding a way to get to know her .

as days past , finally saw her again , this time , it was at her house !

wooooots ! power lahhh bai !

hahas , kinda expect her to be those type of minah2 kecohhh . haha !

skalik mute lahhhh dier , wkakak !

aperh lagyk , aperhh aku bbl ngan members aku , semuer aku taqk focus .

member ngan cui awek lahh kan , pat depan materhhh jekk weii ! xDDDD

sitting at the corner , minding her own business , talking to everyone exept me ! -.-

well , taqk perhh lah , asal kan dpt chuii , hah !

was admiring her blushing face , that point , i knew she noticed me looking at her .

skalik kan !

kiterh peyh materh , ter-locked on saaak !

duer2 tros malu2 . haha !

cute seyhhh , weeee ~

from then on , i was looking forward to sleep over at yishun even more .

just to see her face (:

sambil2 caryk way lah kan untok cntct dier .

day by day , the feeling grew stronger & stronger .

last2 , dpt pon aku cntct ngan dier !

wooooohooo ! dier add aku pat msn . hahas

chat2 , sampai tersenyum2 sendirik

the way she makes me laugh , make me smile . sooo sweet (:

days past , our relation ship as frens grew into a more loving state . hahs

started talking using ' i ' & ' u ' .

flirting . fun moments .

then , one day , we had an outing .

me , her , and the twins .

we started talking , yeahh , just abit lahh , but okay perhh , kan ? hahas

went to ion orchard . bershka ! wooots ~!

im always trying to walk beside her , haha !

when the twin leave her behind , im there to walk beside her

and pretend its a coincidence xDD

was so nervous beside her , serious saaaah ! haha

&& oh oh , everytime she was'nt looking at the cam when we snap pics ,

i'll go like , ' AAIINN ! look at the camera ! ' hahaha !

then she'll go , ' huh ?! WHAAAAT ! taqk prasan seyhhh ' *panic face*

cute ! *winks*

part mkn , aku pon tepi dier (:

kindly volunteered myself to help her to carry the heavy trays .

sweet ehh ^^

then , one day , webcamed , but her webbie rosak , so we just otp pat msn jekk .

sing to her (:

ahahs , dgr suare dier yang cute tuuh , yang aku taqk slalu dgr .

pasal dier asek senyap jekkk pat satu corner . ahaha !

so , i offered her , to accompany her to cp , to get a webbie for herself .

so , we chit chatted till moring & not sleep ! haahha !

then , duer , sayurh2 , piy mand & siap to meet .

was soooo taqk sabar ! haha !

met up at cp , gosh , yeahh , finally im on a date with her ! woooohoo ! haha

walked around , get the webbie , we had a fcuking awesome time !

theres a fcuking long post to this , just go to the post on 02 DEC xD

hehe , after that , met much more often . until , 09 DEC ! finally she mine ! hehe .

till now , im still loving you like how i used to , like what , 9 months ago ? yeahh , around there i guess .

im soo into you babe , forever will be .

well , im off to sleep , my eyes are killing me , baby's wainting for me , kesian dier da penat . ahha !

hugs & kisses

Ayim Ironboyy ; Your Hunneyh (:

2010-07-10T02:18:00.000+08:00

ayyyyy baybehh ~ :D

ayim ironboyy here .

it's our 7th month just now , well , before it reached 12 lahh . haha !

terlambat ahh , hehe (:

soo , we did'nt did much just now , oh ya ! we did !

we slept together & did'nt went to school ! HAHA ! xDDD

fun habes ^^

ermm , tmoro watching twilight with ain (:

heheh , cant wait .

miss her luhh .

chatting with her , but she's bz updating & deleting her folders ):

taqk tawu besok jumperh dier wat tyme .

soo , gonna talk bout just now

yest , bby came over , then lepak2 , maen L4D2

then piy kedai , beli mkn .

balekk , mkn , tgk tv jap . bby tgk citerh cinerhh dier .

focus saakk .

after that , went inside , did some stuffs , poooof ~!

off to sleep .

woke up , washed up , ate our cereal , tgk tv jap .

lol , went back inside the room , moment of silence jap ^^

then she took a nap -.-

beyh aku on comp uhh maen game , haha !

dier bgn , bermanjerh2 jap , then moment of silence ^.^

after that , maen L4D2 . xDDDD

then dier plak lapar , kecian dierrr (:

went buangkok to buy some food for her , walaupon aku niy tgh malas !

sweet kan ? ^^

haah ! mkn tuna mix with thai sweet chilli sauce & mkn ngan roti .

yummy ! hhaha !

thenn , bby had to go ))))):

hantar dier piy bus stop , watched her took the bus .

ermm , i guess , till here ?

idk what to write , seriously , haha !

soo , tata !

ayim ironboyy ; Your hunneyh (:

*big hugs* ;)

Hey . Hello .

2010-07-10T01:19:00.000+08:00

Okay . Lemme start the day by greeting you readers :D
So , greetings sexaaay chikaros & hunks .

My day today is such a bore. I am now at Ayraah Kynnora's crib.
A while more heading to Sengkang to baby's crib.
My tummy hurts and I am craving for yogurts ):
Oh snap! Just came back from the toilet . Shits! I am so confirmed of having
diarrhea . Ah! My tummy hurts. Dammit .
But I still want to meet babylove. I miss him a lot. Freaking much.
Oh my , tomorrow's our seventh monthsarry , I haven't got him anything yet.
Gonna do something about it later on.

I can't wait for tomorrow , I am so freaking hyped up.
So freaking excited . Nervousness seemed to overwhelm my whole body.
Okay I am meeting baby now.

xoxo,
Sugar Kinky :DD

was supposed to be posted on , 8th July.

Ayim Ironboyy here (:

2010-07-07T02:46:00.000+08:00

heyyyyy ! ayim her (:

soo , yeahhh , promised ain i'd be here updating a post for her (:

nearly forgotten -.-

so here i am , updating ! o.o

hahaha ! ermmm , let me see .....

ouhh yeahh ! T-W-O more days to our 7th monthsary ! woooots ~!

did'nt know that we could actually make it this far .

all the endurance , all the shitty things we've gone through ,

im suprised we're still together . thanks for everything dear ,

all the love you gave me , all the care .

all the mushy2-ness , all the warm nights .

the memories from then till now , the sweetness ,

the strength & hope you've given me .

thanks , i appreciated it loads .

i love youuu soo much . just unexplainable .

its like an endless rain of hersheys chocs ;D

you know how much i love them , don't youuu ?

the sweetness , the way it melts in your mouth , the way it makes you go ' mmmmmmmm '

the softness , the way it makes you stop talking for a while .

try converting it to our love dear .

the sweetness of your werds , the way you melt my heart & soul ,

the way you make me go ' mmmmmmmm ' ( that kinda sounds wrong ) ^.^

the softness of your touch , the moments when we stop talking for awhile ,

which is the moment of silence , hehehe ~ ^.^

it feels like heaven dear . nothing beats being with youuu .

i'll die holding your hands , i'll die with your last touch

i love youu ain , reallly , i do (:

*biiiigggg huuugg*

awwwww :)

sweet kan aku ? tawukkk !

soo , for our 7th month , no plans yet lahh kan . mayb just spend time together . i hope i can do something special on that day .

ermmm , currently chatting withhh her , with me on the webbie . yeahh , only me (:

hahah ! entertaining her with my stupid faces -.-

bbhy , seriously , otak aku blank ! -.-

sleepy ! but noooooo ~ i will still type for youuu .

hmmmm , im wondering , are you hugging teddy now ?

or is he just lying on the bed alone , or somewhere behind youuu ?

he needs love taawwww . your warm hugs n kisses .

do me a favour ? nomatter what happened to us , nomatter how much you hate me or smth , please dont throw teddy away ? will youu ? ):

he's innocent . continue loving him & hugging him okaayhhh (:

soooo , already 2.41am . yeahh im hell sleepy . gonna sleep now (:

tata !

huggs & kisses ,

Ayim Ironboyy ; your honeyhhh (:

Impossible .

2010-07-06T16:29:00.000+08:00

I am currently listening to Shontelle - Impossible.
It's a nice song. A sad one indeed

This is the video with lyrics on the screen .

I should take caution when it comes to love.

Mixed feelings.

2010-07-02T22:39:00.000+08:00

Im not okay.
I am not okay , never okay .
Thanks to those who tried to cheer me up. Thanks to those who cared.
Today, I dint go to school. Why? Because I only had one hour to sleep before waking up
for school. Why? I went out with my sister last night to watch 1.35 am Eclipse movie which
eventually ended at 4 am at Orchard Cineleisure . I really enjoyed the movie.
I want to watch it again. It's so touching, I even cried.
Okay, craps.

I had a slight tiff with Ayim Ironboyy ):
I know it's never gonna take long for me to be okay back with him. He's having a nap.
I am precisely giving him time to cool down. And of course my self to calm down and come
back to my senses. I am now having headache. I am too having diarrhea. My body is so weak.
I am trying to let you know how much you meant me.
I love you so much. I really do.

Ayim woke up already . And now , we're texting .
I hope everything's gonna be fine. I know it will.
I am freaking hungry . I haven't had any meals . Oh so sad.

Currently chatting with Iylaa Chinonet, Irarey Kental, Ayraah Kynnoraa ,
Otp-ing with Arfaah and Juliet Nikora.
Texting with Babylove.

Shared my problems with Iylaa Chinonet.
That bitch sent Iylaa a mxg . Iylaa showed me.
I was like ehh whatever sia. She's claiming herself as a minah. Oh my.
What the hell . Tomorrow , I am having CIP :D I can't wait to meet my Iylaa love & Fifi Huns <3
Afterwards , I'm going to Woodlands with Ayim Baby to rebond my hair ^^
After that, I'm going to meet Arfah & Ann at Changi I supposed.
Having two pits tomorrow . Ayraah's and Arfah's .
Both are nemesis. And guess what? Ayraah's pit is no.16 , then Arfahh's is 18!
Baik! Hahaa. Goodluck aye.

School is pathetic but fun because of my crazy baby & bestfriends & babygirls .
Woo. I am so loving it. I am so attentive in class nowadays :D Great right.

I want to stand with Ayim on the highest building and enjoy the wind and cold breeze there :D
Sweet you know. Yes, I know.
Oh snap! My tummy hurts again.
Be right back!
Toilet time . Huhu ^^

School . AyimBaby ,

2010-06-30T02:51:00.000+08:00

My unprivate blog :D

Hello sexy chikaros & hunks :D

Don't ask why I unprivate back my blog. I find it very leceh which means troublesome.

As long that I don't have spammers , my blog will still be as it is . If I have spammers ,

sorry readers which I don't know , I'll private my blog.

So yeah, whatever.

Today is my so called first day in school . Duhh , on the actual first day ,

I dint attend . Instead , slept at home all day like a pig.

School was fun. Awesome ,indeed .

I went to school with my baby,Ayim ^^

I don't have to rush to school anymore you know. I don't have to wake up

that early anymore (: I will approximately reach to school around 10-15mins only (:

So as for school , it's great like I have mentioned above .

In the morning otw to school , I was walking at the bridge of the lrt station ,

as I were walking down the stairs , Iylaa shocked me from behind ! I freaked out for awhile.

Haha. Then separate ways for awhile as I need to meet that matrep ^^ first.

As I were waiting for him to come, Jaeza shocked me ! What a morning .

Haha. Matrep soon arrived , goodness , I felt like hugging him you know.

*Baby, I control seyh sumerh tadi (: Hee ((:

After wards , I talk non-stop to him . Haha. I can't stop.

Hahaha. Separated ways with him, meeting during break time.

And guess what! While I was climbing the stairs, Fifi came from behind and

made me shocked ! Then we hugged each other. What a morning!

Three times of shokingness ! Separate ways. Got to class , Iylaa love sat next to me! (:

Actually and originally, she wanted to sit behind me. But then, nvm.

I know, she knows what public don't know (:

We had out p.e during the first lesson , we took height and weight thingy.

Afterwards played captain's ball (:

English afterwards :DD I was paying attention ((: I'm sitting at the front you know!

Hahah. Recess afterwards , me & Iylaa love was waiting for Fifi salt ^^

And sadly, matrep nyerh recess not the same as mine. Gah.

Mondays and tuesdays is not the same.

Me and Iylaa love ate during recess. Shits happens and all (:

We're having malay then.

Teacher bought us all souvenirs from China . Amazing (:

Poor my Iylaa Nonet , was pushed and shoved by a particular someone.

I shall not say who. And Iylaa was complaining to me and Fifi.

Pity her.

Blabla . And ouh ! Our design and technology sucks balls .

It's not our former teacher. It damn suckish.

I am so not loving it this year this time round.

And oh, after school, as per normal.

When she went home , everyone was like " Yes uh ! Finally "

Especially my bestfriends . Haha.

Okay whatever. Slacked with ayimbaby , akmal & alin , sham , ashikin , afad&afai<3

Shits happens , wtv , I am very lazy to elaborate. So yeaaah .

Headed to Ayimbaby's crib. Then you know, I am very fatigue then Mummy asked

me to go and fetch Haziq, Ayimbaby's nephew , downstairs.

And so I did. On the way up, I asked Haziq what he learnt and all, and from there,

he didn't stop talking!

I was already tired . And , Ayimbaby is very very engrossed in his fishing stuffs so, I

just played his guitar till I fall asleep .

By the time I woke up, it's already 10plus and my mother texted ayim. Haha.

Ehem. Blablabla. Watch some youtube videos and all . Then ayimbaby sent me to

the bustop .

Wow , I shall say that , the time spent between us wasn't enough ,

belum lagi mencukupi . Chey, speaking sia.

Okay crap. And till now , I still miss ayimbaby.

Ayim, I love you so freaking much and I miss you a lot .

I am so going to sleep , 3 more hours to wake up .

Goodnights bitches.

Chao.

Stupid Centipede.

2010-06-29T04:35:00.001+08:00

I didn't attend the first day of school .

What do you expect , it's first day . I cannot sleep the night before .

Obviously I'll be having problems waking up in the morning .

I know right , yeah , whatever .

So , it's four in the morning and I am listening to Gwen Stefani's Four In the Morning.

I can't sleep . Missing that guy so much ; Ayim ^^

Yesterday I woke up at four pm because I dint attend school so might as well sleep ,

and you know what ! he texted me :DD Yeah , who else , Ayim lah .

He's so freaking cute . Anyway , sorry for the late replies aye matrep :D

Woke up , straight away showered , then had my late lunch . Asked bibik to help

me to buy prepaid . Top-ed up .

Watch some DVDs , went out awhile to Tampines Mall .

Continue to watch movies , cook my dinner .

Watch teevee , and watch teevee . Then , dyed my hair .

Showered . Sleep , but nopes , here I am blogging .

Just now , that matrep replied me . But then I think he eventually went back to sleep .

Poor him , he's tired (:

I miss you matrep :D

Oh yeah , I lived on the groundfloor right , then just now ,

I had stomach ache , then went to the toilet to shit ! haha .

then as i were doing the business , a centipede came out from nowhere !

It's effing fast that I eventually freaked out!

Shocked sia. Yucks .

It's like damn poisonous , and it can kill me , duhh .

I was like " WOAH WOAH WOAH ! "

Then I took the pipe , and sprayed it with the full blast of water !

Opened that hole over there , and wash it away.

And after it's gone, I'm still spraying the hole with water to ensure that it

doesn't come up again . EEW ! Luckily mom had a brave daughter like me yknow :DD

And fortunately , I had finish shitting when it came up.

So yeah. Chaotic .

Oh fuck, my tummy's grumbling .

Ayim baby^^ , wake up sooooon :D

I miss texting you . I'm always hugging the carebear you gave me to sleep.

I like it a lot. I really love it. It's freaking cute.

It always reminds me of you (:

By the way , Ayim , I can't wait to see you later ^^

Gonna hug you so tight .

Anyway, just came back from the toilet to pee.

But I didn't go to the toilet which has the occurrence of the centipede incident.

Instead , I went to my sister's room ((:

Much more safer .

By the way, it's been a long time I never listen

to Safe & Sound. Better not, it reminds me of those time we're supposed to patch.

Lol. But then again, it's a nice song .

I'm so going to have breakfast before going to school.

It's 4.30 now, I am going to shower at about 6 .

Gah . Now , I live nearer to school , I don't have to worry much about waking up late.

Gahahah ~ (:

That Ayim , must be having a great sleep ehh . Wow, how I wish he's sleeping with me (:

Can cuddle him.

He said , I'm his bantal pelok which means bolster . And I told him , he's soft like a teddy bear.

Oh yeah, today , I want to lepak with him plus do all my assignments .

I'm so freaking bored and that this post is already long enough.

Okay, bye ;D

ps , AYIM :D i freaking love you so much , you dumbfuck :D mwarhs ^^

No one ever have won that kind of place in my heart .

2010-06-28T05:28:00.000+08:00

current feeling , breaking down.
current song that i'm listening : Three Cheers for Five Years.

No one ever had that kind of place in my like you do .

No one has ever won that position , only you did .

Ayim Ironboyy ,

Sometimes you left me wondering over somethings .

I have always been wondering how you brought me up from the ground ,

how you manage to partly heal my broken and shattered heart .

I just want you to be there for me everytime I need you.

Even if I don't , I want you to stay by my side .

I hope you still remember those promises you and me made

to each other eight months ago ; because I still do .

Every single ones of it .

Two months before we became one .

Currently listening to Three Cheers For Five Years.

Yes , I know Ayim , it's going to hurt me .

But this is the song that reminds me of you .

How you brought me up from the ground . How you pick me up

again and teach me how to walk too .

I only had you , my brothers ; Afad & Afai and my sister Iera Kitkat <3

followed by my mom , and cousins like AyuJepon to comfort me

during that heart-wrenching time when I broke up with him.

I kept wondering , why you cared so much for me at that point of time.

I kept pondering over a couple of things , not a couple but a lot of things

that eventually left me with no answer and still wondering .

Why did you cared so much for meat that point ?

You consoled & comfort me so willingly .

You warmed my heart with all your words .

Whenever , I am online , I see you there .

And everytime we're online , I would definately talk to you .

Our conversations those times always made me smile .

Even if you're talking to me online , and obviously we can't see each other ,

I would still smile and blush by myself .

You never fail to make my day and make me smile .

Ayim , I really really treasure you .

I really really love you my Ironboyy :D

I wish you were right by myside every single time I opened my eyes ;

Awaken from a bad dream or just woke up.

I am really sorry I didn't reply your text baby,

My prepaid is down. Yeah, I know you knew .

And again , thanks for accompanying me to meet my mom just now.

I love you baby.

I miss you so freaking much .

Lots and lots of kisses ! Muah :D

See ya later on.

Randomicity.

2010-06-18T00:23:00.000+08:00

Hello shitheads :D
So today , I woke up at two :DD
Baby slept like a pig ! [ NO I DIDN'T ] * INTERRUPTIONS FROM BABY *
Still denying the facts . That's my boyfriend . Loves to deny facts .
Pfft . Very irritating ^^
[ I WAS JUST TIRED THAT'S ALL ] * CUTE FACIAL EXPRESSION OF HIS *
and again , tryna come out with excuses saying that he is ,tired lah
exhausted lah , fatigue lah . HAHA .

Okay whatever . He eventually woke up at six plus .
I was lying in bed for fucking 4 hours playing games waiting for him to wake up. HAHA . could you believe that !? wow .
Haha . okay , craps.

I made him sandwiches . And then , Kak Lynn got home.
Watched chinese drama serial and after wards
showered .
Watch some tv again , went to seven eleven just across my house .
Bought food to eat . Then , bibik cooked us ' Sardine Goreng ' !
My favourite dish :DD
What am I waiting for ? Eat again ! Hahah . And so did Baby.
Then Sis got home . Bla bla bla . Watching horror movie now .
Bye reader :D

Chao .

Long day.

2010-06-17T03:48:00.000+08:00

I LOVE YOU , IRONBOYY :D

Greetings to all the whores and dumbfucks :D

So , what day is it today ? Okay , skippp ~

Yeah . It's been a long time since my last post .

So yeah . Of course my blog's not dead yet .

It's just a little dusty , that's all .

But I reckoned that Baby's blog's dead .

For that , I can really assure you .

I am not going to elaborate on what happened these few days .

It's too long to type and to story about .

So yeah .

Now , I am currently at my sister's crib at tamp .

So yeah . It have been few days now .

Today , I mean as in just now, Wednesday.

Uh huh , planned to have breakfast at Compass Point with

oh cmon ! who else ? BABY :D

Supposingly meeting at nine . But ended up , woke up at 9 plus

and then , yes , went back to sleep .

While he , on the other hand , woke up at 10 .

So again , no breakfast ! Gahaahaha , whatvever.

Sis woke me up . But I ignored her .

She asked me to follow her to CCK , but hell no . I wasn't following.

Because I wanted to go out with Baby :D

To watch movie .

Sister then gave me cash ^^

Okay skippppp .

Waited for baby at the bustop he was alighting .

So yeah.

Shits happened and all .

We watched Karate Kid :DDDDDD

It was a very very nice movie . I enjoyed my day with Baby :DD

Then , I actually wanted to accompany him to wait till his bus came .

But then , this smart sweetlove of mine , offered to send me home :D

Which is just across the street . Opposite the stop .

Hahaa . And myself insisted that he send to my front door .

He was like WTH ?!

He was already red all over his face ^^

So freaaaaaaaaaaaking cute you know to see his reaction

at that particular point of time . GAHHA .

Blabla . Mom asked him to come in . And he was HELL SPEECHLESS :D

so cute ^^

He was very quiet , reserved and was very silent .

Indeed shy & nervous .

Then , sis insist he stay over for this night .

And so , that's the why he's here :DDDDDD

Okay , that's all .

I'm exhausted & fatigue .

Chao.

I enjoyed it a lot . ILYB !

2010-06-10T18:37:00.000+08:00

Greetings bitches & dickheads .

What an awesome Thursday :D

It's so cold and cozy today . The weather's perfect . It's so awesome .

Not hot and it's not raining too . It's just so windy . I like it a lot :D

So precisely I am going to blog about yesterday's outing with Babylove.

See that picture up there ? That's how I am dressed and looked yesterday evening .

Yesterday was awesome-ness to the max ! :DD

I just love yesterday so much , I don't know why .

I have to wait for mom to get home first before I can go out to meet love. And so I did wait for mom. Met her downstairs . She was with her friend.
Mom called Babylove by his girl name , which is Naima . How cute !
Hahah . Obviously mom knows I'm meeting him lah . The moment mom saw me ,
she said " Wah wah wah , bukan main lagi eh kau make up ! Mentang2 nak jumperh Naima ! "
Haha . That's funny. Lol .

Firstly we planned to watch movie at Pasir Ris . But then , Baby pitied me .
So sweet . Then he suggest that we go Orchard which is more nearer to me .
Babylove reached Orchard Mrt station first .
And so I trained to Orchard which is just 7 stops in total .
4 stops from Tiong Bahru to City Hall . 3 stops from City Hall to Orchard (:
The moment I saw him , I walked towards him with a wide smile :D
Then I hugged him straight !(:
I miss him so freaking much . Yeah .

Walked to Cineileisure , booked tickets for '' Killers '' for the 9pm timeslot .
And so , after that , went to have our dinner at Pastamania .
I ate , Beef Meetballs Pasta while Baby ate the Creamy Chicken Pasta .

I was very clumsy and very blur yesterday and it's so damn funny .
I tripped over things for quite a number of times . But I didn't FALL okay .
Haha . After dinner , we were just in time for the movie .

Ashton Kutcher , wow . He's hot . If baby knows this , I'm dead .
The movie is so nice . It's full of craps , thrill , love .
I would rate 5/5 stars :D

Supposingly , me and baby going to meet Yat at East Coast at night .
But somethings just cropped up .
So , instead we both just trained home .

So , today ,
meeting baby . And we both are going to meet Yat and my big brother , Afad
at East Coast .
I can't wait . Okay , till here .

Tomorrow , maybe going to Woodland's .
So yeah .

Chao .

Kisah cinta Ainayim ; Ainayim love story .

2010-06-09T06:53:00.001+08:00

Happy Sixth Babylove.
Never did I had imagine with could go this far my dear love .
Remeber that picture above baby? Remember those moments?
I cherished every single moments spent with you .
I just simply love everything about you .
The way you talk to me , it's so gentle . You made me feel so warm .
The warmness of your hugs , are just so unexplainable baby .
The tenderness of your kiss , just made me realised the existence
of our love in this world of ours .
You, are the only guy who had stole and manged to fix my broken heart.
You, are the only guy who manage to put back all the shattered pieces back together.
Only you had manage to make me open up once again .
You managed to win me and made me open up my eyes and see that
there's someone right infront of my eyes who can take care of the fragile heart I had.

Your sweetness of words did heal the wound in my heart that has been there
and not treated for four months .
You healed me .
Your care towards me , everything about you just will make my heart smiles .
Even if I am mad at you or so , my heart would still smile because I know
very deep down inside me , you're the only one for me and I love you very much .
You taught me a lot of values. You taught me the true meaning of love .
It was very unexpected that you managed to win my heart .
You tried your best . All your efforts are paid off .
Everything paid off your long wait to have me as yours .

The memories I had with you , every single moments spent with you are
still fresh and still replaying and rewinding in my head . Like a film without sounds .
Knowing that you're willing to even sacrifice your life for me , knowing that there's
still someone who cared about me so much , you made my heart feel secured .
Everytime you look me in the eyes ,
you made my heart skipped a beat .
I just want to tell you how much I really love you.
I want you to know ,you're always the one I think of every single minute of my life .
I wish to spend my whole life with you .
I wanna go old with you .

till here , I really love you so fucking much .
I can't wait to meet you later .
Gotta have some sleep .
It's already 8.52 am , and I haven't sleep yet .
MUAAAAAAAHS <3

Chao.

Delirious .

2010-06-08T22:44:00.000+08:00

Hoho . Back .

Second post for the day .

I am so hyped-up for tomorrow .

Approximately 3 more hours to me and baby 's sixth month .

I am so excited . But sadly , I haven't get anything yet for baby .

Blame myself for waking up late . Baby is also not well prepared .

But , yes there's a but , we promised to exchange our gifts on this

Saturday . I have something to do . It's very sweet and nice you know .

I can't reveal it here basically . When Saturday comes , I'll tell you guys here

alright ?

Currently listening to Soulja Boy Tell Em 's songs .

Still texting baby .

One of my babygirl , Mirabell , is married already .

Happy for her :DD

Skipp ~

2 more hours to sixth month , I am freakin ' excited .

My hunny never fails to make me feel delirious .

I just like it a lot when baby stares and look me in the eyes .

By doing that , I am already melting .

Everytime he does that , he actually made my heart skipped a beat .

I fall in love even deeper . God , I have never been in love this deep before .

I have never felt true love . There's no other Ayim Ironboyy in this universe .

I can't basically find another him in this world so cold .

He made me feel very warm . His hugs , his smiles , his laughters , his touch & kisses .

He's the most sweetest guy , the most loving one I have ever met in this world .

I love him so much .

Skippppp ~

Now , I am pampering myself with Cadbury's hot chocolate drink

while watching my Indonesia drama while texting baby .

I can't wait for tomorrow. I can't wait to meet you , Ayim :D

Till here for now ,

goodnights :D

Late .

2010-06-08T19:26:00.000+08:00

These roads never seemed too long since your paper heart stopped beating . Leaving me suddenly so alone . - Paperthin Hymn.

Greetings shitheads and dumbfucks.
Yes , I didn't go for breakfast this morning with my baby .
Obviously I didn't get up from bed ; likewise .
I slept at 5 plus in the morning and expected to wake up at around 7.45 am .
I set the alarm . But unfortunately it didn't ring . Baby woke up at around 9 plus , I reckon .
I was awaken at 11.42 am , and that's it , goodbye to my hotcakes at Macdonald's .
Slept again . My goddamn prepaid ran out already .

I am currently superr bored !
Omg , it's 7.26 pm already ! My chinese drama started already !
Blogging again later .

Be right back alright peeps .

Chao.

Sleepless night .

2010-06-08T04:57:00.000+08:00

Late at night . Silence is all that exist . Darkness .
And yet I am still up . I am very restless indeed . I can't probably sleep now right?
Approximately around 2 hours ago , I watched ' Another Cinderella Story ' .
Now , I am watching ' Army Daze ' , a local comedy movie .

Sweet love is accompanying me since just now .
So sweet of him to wait for me to turn in .
We're meeting up in 4 to 5 hours time . To have breakfast together .
I wanted to eat hotcakes with butter and honey .
Talking about breakfast , I am hungry .

My healthy low-fat bars ran out already . Fml .
I am gonna buy some cereals , the low-fat bars , milk .

After meeting sweetlove tomorrow , I am planning to meet Irarey .
Have to buy something for my sixth month with sweetlove .
Skippp ~

I am going to get my hair done .
Maybe dying my hair again to make the colour more vibrant and more visible .
Gonna get my hair rebond again .

Maybe on Wednesday , which is the ninth . Means that it's my sixth month with
sweetlove . Half year passed . Half more to go to our first anniversary .
Planning to watch some movies .
I still don't know what to watch .
I can't wait to go shopping on the 10th .
I supposed that my cash will be transfer to my account between the 10th and 15th .

I am so freaking eager and excited for this Wednesday ((:

Oh yes , I wanna watch ' Killers ' on this Wednesday .
Kay , it's all set , I reckon .
I am so looking forward to meet sweetlove later on .

I better get some rest now !
Need to get some beauty sleep .
Or else I can't wake up on time to have breakfast .

Goodnights :DD

It's on and poppin .

2010-06-07T21:29:00.001+08:00

Everyday I see my dream .

Second post for the day .

I am very very very bored .

Currently listening to LMFAO songs .

Am very obsessed with it .

Still texting HAWTLOVE :DD

love you lah .

A short post for now .

Toddles , gonna listen to lmfao songs or watch MTV or just some movies

or even cartooooooons ! ^^

chao .

Weekends ^^

2010-06-07T20:45:00.000+08:00

I'm back peeeps .

Okay , a lot of things happened recently and so I'm gonna elaborate here .

So , basically this post is about my weekends .

On Friday ,

I went to Giant at Tamp with Iylaa love , Muzzy , Natalie , Janis & Jillian ^^

Had fun ! :D We bought the food for the BBQ on Sunday .

After wards , me , Iylaa & Muzzy bus-ed to Sengkang .

I met my baby , Alino , Akmalo & Luqmano .

Slacked and all . And you know , I had to carry the raw food which consists of

4 Kg of chicken , prawns , squids & the big silver tray for the storage of food .

Luckily baby helped me . Plus the help of Alino , Akmalo & Luqmano .

Aww , thanks guys :D

Headed to baby's house .

Sleepover at his crib . Called Iylaa love to say that I'm sleeping over at her house on Saturday so that it would be easier for Nat to pick us up .

She got so hyped up :DD

Baby hugs were so warm . I was having a bad headache on that night ,

and it was so kind of him to massage my head . So sweet .

Saturday ,

woked up , I was having nightmares again .

The moment I had nightmares , I would always find my baby ((:

Then Baby accompany me home to take my things for the sleepover I'm having at Iylaa love 's crib and also for the BBQ the following day .

I even had time to dye my hair . I dyed my fringe and my two long sides ; MILK TEA <3 Freaking love it .

Headed to baby's crib to take all the stuffs as in the food and all .

Hailed a cab to Iylaa's crib .

So hyped up ! Talk non-stop . Seriously .

When girls meet , they couldn't get enough of each other .

Sunday ,

Slept like a pig . When Iylaa love gets home , I'm still on her bed lying down !

Haha . Then showered and all , help her and her mom to fry the things up at the kitchen . Then after that , quickly doll up for the BBQ .

Natalie's mom fetch us . She's niceeeee , I like ! (:

Then Muzzy came along to join us and then Baby came toooooo ! :D

YAY !

Baby help to start the bbq .

Thanks to Muzzy and Baby . ^^

It's hectic . Plus fun ^^

I'm lazy to blog about it . I'm very tired !

Haha .

Oh oh , yesterday Baby actually wanted me to hail a cab home .

He even gave me cash to take a cab home .

But then , mom asked him to send me home ^^

So sweet of him to do it :D

Mom is in gooooooood terms with baby and I'm freaking happy :DD

Currently texting baby .

OMG ; 2 more days to our sixth month and duhh ! it means ,

it's our half year . Sixth more months to our 1st anniversary .

I'm loving you sayank .

Chao .

p.s ,

there's this someone who eventually used my phrase . ' Fuck Friendship ' .

Poser .

Hectic .

2010-06-04T01:16:00.000+08:00

I'm gonna elaborate on what happened during these three days ,

which is on Tues , Weds and Thurs .

And so , let me start off by saying ,

HELLO WORLD ! :D

So , basically on Tuesday , I had my Netball training .

It was tough . When I say tough , I really mean T-O-U-G-H .

After Netball , me , Iylaa Love , Fifi Huns & Muzzy headed to CompassPoint .

Yes , to have our breakfast which turns out to be our lunch .

Iylaa ate McChicken while me and Fifi ate McChicken Meal .

Well , I can't really remember what Muzzy was eating at that specific moment .

Wasn't paying attention that much .

After lunch , went to a shop called Sonare , Muzzy had to but his guitar strings.

They planned to slack somewhere near school , but unfortunately ,

I can't as I already promise someone which is Ironboyy , that I would spend time with him .

So yeah .

As you can see , I have greaaat and amazing plus wonderful friends

who can really really understand me you know .

Said goodbye to them .

It's a coincidence that Ironboyy came on time .

Went to his house and slack awhile .

Many things happen . And I am missing him already .

He sent me home afterwards .

My muscle is aching badly you know .

Wednesday , I kinda rest at home.

I had nightmares .

I won't elaborate it here .

I only told Ironboyy about it . I woke up crying then texted him .

I just wished he was here to hug me or so . That nightmare is really affecting me right now . Okeh , wtv . Fuck nightmares . Skippppp ~!

Mom came back home , asked me to shower as she wants to bring me out for dinner .

I only had one meal for Wednesday . Fried Maggie for my breakfast , lunch and dinner . I had no appetite you see to eat .

After wards , went shopping .

Mom brought me to shop for cosmetics .

I bought whatever I wanted . And to my surprise ,

it costs $ 116 already .

Okay whatever it is , thanks mom ! (:

I just love it when mom brings me to shop !

Imma shopaholic !

Otp with Iylaa love for a while only because my batt flat , and Mom's

gonna be flat anytime soon .

My body's still aching .

Text Ironboyy then went to sleep .

As for today ,

it was crazy and hectic .

Netball training , like obviously tough .

Skippppp ~

Fifi huns never turn up .

After training , Iylaa love & Muzzy and me headed to cp

to have our Breakfast cum Lunch .

Then Ironboyy texted me ! ((:

Afterwards , we all headed to Fifi's crib .

Skippppp ~

Went home , showered , get changed .

Meet Ironboyy at Hougang , he accompanied me to shop !

Headed to Tamp afterward .

Home sugar home ~

Now , currently texting Ironboyy .

Dozing off to sleep anytime sooon already .

Toddles .

p.s , someone claimed that she blogged like somekind of minah , omg , self praise or what . prasann .

Okeh , chao !

JU LIEANNE , that lifeless bitch.

2010-06-02T16:12:00.000+08:00

Hey readers ,

Firstly I was wrongly accused of spamming by this lifeless bitch .
See the picture above ? I print-screen it just now while I was on her blog .
Why is she sucha a coward who didn't put my name on her post ?

Okay , attention ,
I gotta let out here , so , don't mind my minah-ness okayh readers .

woah woah , hold it bitch .
atrocious grammar of mine ? Look who's talking .
Julie lah siul .
wah takot nyer .
At least , I got better marks than you , lifeless little bitch .
And , please lah ehh , get a life and stop blogging bout me .
' I know who you are laa kay ' , CONFRONT uh siuuuul .
Takot perh ? Cb laaaaa .
Plus plus , nak blog pasal aku , beyh takot perh sia nak letak namerh aku ?
Kimak , kental lah kau ehh . Besar peyh penakot .
Brani bobal blakang , face to face uh sial . Asal ? Chol perh ?
Pussy wimp ? Pussy wimp mak kau uh sial .
Memang patot lah siak , kau dapat family mcm gituh .
Bodoh peyh attention seeker .
And please lah ehhhhhh , bukan aku sorg lah yang tak sukerh kau .
Nak aku list down perh ? Siala bedah , prasan sia kau .
Bilang aku ehhh kalau kau nak aku list down aye .
Kau conferm bo , aku sorg je blog pasal kau ? Haa .
Dengan prangai kau yang macam sundal gituh , kau ckp aku sorg blog pasal kau ?
Eh , cmon lah ! Accept the facts and truth lah .
Please ehh , btol kan prangai kau tuh baru bleyh bbl pasal aku lah kay ,
JULIE ANNE .

at least aku brani lah siak , letak namerh kau . Daripade kau ?
Harapkan bobal blakang ?

Slamat ehh , besar peyh keleng .
And oh oh , igt ehh , jangan step EURASION LAH KAY .

Chao.

So , that's about it .
Don't mind my minah-ness alright dearest readers .
Okay , that's about it here .

Chalo .

I C A H J E P O N !

2010-06-02T14:14:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAAAAY TO ICAH JEPON !

may allah bless you , my dearest pantart !

hopefully you get a new hp soon and get back to me aye .

i really miss you ,pantart .

Btw , to all PANTARTS ,

attention ,

meeeeet up soon okay .

I'll update Iezaaa syg sooon .

chao .

Ayim Ironboyy ,

2010-05-29T03:58:00.000+08:00

OWH EM GEE .

Lemme love you now .
Oh my gosh , I'm so in love .

Time check : 3.35 am .

I am so active on blog . Haa .
Reason being ? Sleepless .

Currently texting my dearest Mr. Madu and listening to
Usher's OMG .
I got so addicted to it . Plus there's this one song by Lil Wayne , which got me
dance with the beat . No ceilings . Featuring Birdman .

Pop that pussy and shake that ass .
No ceilings .

It's fucking niceeee !
And oh , Broken by Sezairi is one of my top .
Tomorrow gonna go out with Honey , he asked me out to Sentosa .
He's having class picnic there .
Meeting him at Compass Point at around 1 .
Then gonna meet the rest at VivoCity .

Kinda excited you know .
Reasons ? Because I miss him lah !
gonna wake up at around 10 plus . You know lah , I take a lot of time
to dress up . Going out at around 12 plus .

OMG ! IDK WHAT TO WEAR !
FML btol .

I'm singing No ceilings by myself .
Orang laen tido , aku sebok memekak .

Sibeyh sian .
I wanna watch movie ! But baby wants me to sleep together with him .
Aiyee .
I am very sleeeeeeepless .

Still texting baby .
Pity him , because he needs to listen & entertain my craps .
Haa .

Later, I give many many kiss okay (:

Okay readers & bitches .
Lastly ,

I miss my babyGs tooo .
Nights .

Off to bed .
Chao .

With love .

School's out .

2010-05-29T01:22:00.000+08:00

Fly with me as we make our great escape .

Class breakfast yesterday was havoc . Very fun .
I didn't care about her . Because I knew , my girlfriend won't
be with you because she preferred me .
I can see that , you're just tryna get her back , kan ?
It's so obvious .
So , yeah , whatever . Fuck your life , bitch .
I care less . Do what you want , because I know , I'm still standing tall .

And so , after school , slacked .
Shits happen .
At night , after the talk in school , called Iylaa up .
Then , we otp a while .

Back home , online , chatted with her. We did this hearts to hearts talk .
Which will strengthen our friendship up . Love you girlfriend .
Baby didn't online . So , I just texted him .
Didn't off my comp , and just went to sleep afterwards .

Woked up , back to the comp , blogging .
Chatted with Iylaa & Baby <3
Mom bought me Nasik Ayam Penyet .
Still blogging . Blabla .
Iylaa went offline already , talked to baby love .
Shits happen . And so , Baby had to follow his brother to Woodland's checkpoint .
And till now , 1 20 am , not back home yet . Got kinda worried .
Because Baby can't reply to my text as his prepaid is low . Nabueyy btol .

Now , I am sleepy .

Chao.

How I exactly felt about you the moment I love you . It's from the bottom of my heart .

2010-05-28T21:22:00.000+08:00

I know I never told you that I love you and it's too late because you're attached at that very instance . I don't know how to hold you and I don't wanna leave that way . I whispered to myself '' I hope you're happy with her , love . " . And again I said to myself " I'm here if you need me . I'll never forget you . Never . " And now , fate has brought us together as one . I have found my other half , and you're finally mine . I love you , love . 091209 .

The moment we crossed each other's eyes , I fall for you .
Love at the first sight .
The very first time I saw you , 020109 , the very first time I lay my eyes on you ,
you made me have this instinct that we will get to know each other .
I really had this feeling that , we will have chemistry somehow .

Then , I saw you again . The feeling grew . But I knew , I can't expect anything .
It was maybe just a crush . It's on the same particular day , it was the second time .
I knew your name by then . It was a coincidence that you're one of my
brother's friend .
You tried talking to me , but me on the other hand , was playing hard to get .
I was feeling so awkward walking with you and him .

I went back home , search for you in my year book .
I knew your class . Was searching for you in school again and again .
Hoping to see your hot face again .
But sadly , you weren't there .

Fate brought us to meet each other again , on the 17th January .
My heart chuckled to see you . Admiring you .
Then there's this thought that came to mind ,
" If this is a crush , why am I feeling love ? "

All the way , thinking to myself . Looking at you .

I was finding the bestest way to contact you .
But I can't .
Staring at your pictures .
Like I was actually dreaming .

April ,
noticed that you're actually attached .
Everything went down to the drain .
" I loved him . It's no longer a crush . Love , eventually hurt me . "
But I picked up my courage , and tell myself , it's okay .

Tears streamed down . Heart shattered like a broken glass on the ground .
Hid everything behind my face .

So many months thinking of you ,
it all went away . The love beginning to go away .
Tired of searching for you , tryna tell you of what I felt .
But you were nowhere to be found .
I didn't give up , but I decided to let go .
But it seemed not right , I kept quiet and eventually settled down .
My world seemed so dark , no reasons to try anymore .
Let go . Forgotten.

Fate again brought us meeting each other again .
One fine summer night in June ,
looking through your pictures ,
suddenly , you came home with my brothers .
Yes , you came to my house .
I was shocked .
At the same moment , I keep wondering , why does fate even brought us
together , meeting each other .

I can't keep my eyes off you .
Trying to control that feeling . But I was too weak to do that ,
it was all coming back . Back to me .
Sleepless .
I sat there , infront of you , staring at my lappy ,
being there all alone by myself , thinking & wondering ,
quiet . silence overwhelming me .
I was being restless , if only you had noticed , my face was reddish .

Can't control it , went to bed .
But I couldn't sleep , never.
Toss and turned around .
Looking at the plain white ceiling .
Thinking of you all night . Still I couldn't sleep .

The next morning , after freshen up .
There you were , still sleeping ,
I took your phone , look at you pictures secretly .
Admiring about your relationship with her ,
" That girl is so lucky to have you , sweets . "

Afternoon came , you sat infront of me again , the same spot
like you did previous night ,
I was too .
Now , I keep staring at you . Likewise ,
and by you doing that , you made my heart pumps faster .
Now , I really feel it coming back .
But I was in no state to stop it , stop Love from coming back .

And so , you came by to sleepover at my crib more often .
I can't help love to come back .
Soon , I got a way to contact you , I managed to find your msn .
And so , we already got in contact .
I have been always looking forward to talk to you .

Eventually I got attached on July .
But I never forgot you .
Swear .
I kept on thinking of you .
We were in contact .
You tend to make me smile . Never failed to do so . Never failed to make my heart
chuckled .

August ,
we were talking as if we were lovers .
I know you're attached . On the other hand , you too know .
But you the why I didn't stop , because , it was hard to let go
of you .
Only then , I know Love has became stronger .

October came ,
the month when I eventually turned single back .
But you didn't .
It was hard for me as I was badly hurt . My heart was shattered because
of that break up I had previously .
You somehow always make an effort to cheer me up and
tell me that there's someone who still cared & love me ,
and that person is you .
I smiled .

November arrived ,
and we got more into each other .
And you confessed to me about your feelings you had .
I did too .
But the moment you talked to me about her , I feel different .
As though that you're loving her much more than me .
I know , your girlfriend , of course you would love her .
But then again , I smile and just ' layankan ' you , I pretend
like as if I don't mind . But you dint know that I do mind .
Behind my smiles , there's tears . Behind my laugh , there's pain .

And I got this feelings , that you are the one for me .
You called me what a girlfriend should be called .
And I did to you too .

December was the most awesomest moment I had .
We were still into each other .
01 dec , was chatting with each other ,till the next morning , 0212, and eventually met
each other .
We , sacrificed our beautiful sleep just to meet each other .
I began to open my heart again .
Came to think about it , you were still attached .
But never did I care about her .
I didn't . Because precisely I know , you love me .
03 , we chatted again till morning , and again , 0412 , met each other .
Sacrificed our sleep again .
By then , I noticed how Love has grown from 0201 to 0412 ,
and we got more personal .
You gave pecks , kisses & hugs .
And eventually , we got more and more touchy .
I got in love with you even more deeper .

You asked me out on a date , on the 0612 ,
and you even declared me as your girlfriend .
But we weren't .

We went through ups and downs together .
And finally , 091209 , we were attached to each other .
Never did I know , you loved me since the start too .
Never did I know you made to win me again .
I have always been wanting to be yours , and that day to came .
091209 was the best day .

Okay , during those times , this is what I really felt , .

Love , me .

Random Habes .

2010-05-17T00:33:00.000+08:00

Hey bitches .

I have nothannng to blog about right now .
Yes . So boring .

Yesterday at Lau Pa Sat , I saw Zaki !
Yeah , Raja Ahmad Zaki ! My primary school friend .
Omg , he recognizes me .

Hahas .

So just now , I woked up , showered , on computer .
Chat with Baby & Iylaa <3
All the way .
Hahas .

Iylaa just went offline .
Later gonna meet her and study a while before exams starts .
So yeah .
Now only chatting with Baby .

Gosh ,
btw ,
Ayim , aku sukerh kau .
Paham ? ^^

With love ;

random .

2010-05-15T18:31:00.000+08:00

Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars ?

Hello readers .
I woked up very late . 5 plus , I reckoned .
At 5 am , I was awaken by my handphone .
Texted Tyty Chinonet .
Then , when I was fully awake , continue with texting Iylaa , Tyty & Babyboy .

Ayim Ironboyy went back to sleep .
As for myself , Iylaa asked me to go online .
And so I did .
Chat with her .
Fun . But then again , cheer up alright .

And so ,
she went offline already just now .
Mom came home , bought me oldchangkee.

And yes ! I badly wanted a guitar & new lenses .
Gosh , now I must wait for next month , wait for cash to be transfered to my acc.

I miss Ayim ^^
Gosh . Hehe .

Gonna take a shower already , then off to Lau Pa Sat , to eat Satay .
Wow .
Okeh .
Chao .